The Shy Boy!

A couple of days or was it weeks ago, Syura of Petty Ramblings of a Petty Queen wrote a posting called 'seriously, what do you want?' which was about stalkers. You know the kind, those that just visit your blog daily, you'd see their avatars on your sidebar widgets everyday but not a single peep from them in your comment box.

What she replied to my comments was what got me writing this post. In her reply to my comment there was this line which she wrote:

'Gosh, I'm asking you of all people. You memang tak pandai malu type, right? (Loosely translated means, you have no shame or you're not the shy type). LOL!! Okay, go stalk now...'

And I just had to laugh hysterically at the comment. I'm actually the exact opposite of that statement ... hehehe ... I wonder if that's the impression I give on my blog with the way I write, that I have no shame ... LOL! To be really honest, I'm seriously a very shy person in real life.

'Then what the hell are you doing working in the client servicing department if you're shy?'

That is a good question. I think I wrote a post on this some time back called 'A Thankless Industry' way back in September. I've always been a shy person by nature. Back when I was a kid, I'd hardly open my mouth and speak to anyone I didn't know. Not because I was intimidated or scared of them but because I was just plain shy and didn't know what to say to them.


I wasn't just that way with strangers. Even when my relatives came over to visit us on occasions, I'd always hide out behind the tables, showcases or whatever I could hide behind! Of course I don't do that now la, I just hideaway in my room ... LOL! I have to really be familiar with that person before I was comfortable enough to get out of my shell.

Even when it came to the girls, it was the same. I went to school with a school bus back in my younger days. And I was so shy that if I went up the bus and the only available seat left was with a girl, I'd rather stand than sit with her! I also couldn't maintain eye contact with people whenever I spoke with them. I'd stammer if I was forced to talk with anyone! And if I wasn't on the tanned side, you'd even see me turn beet red. I never mixed around much because of this. I was more of a loner, which contributed even more to my shy outlook.

And I know, judging by how crazy and insane I can be here on my blog, you guys would probably find it real hard to believe I am the shy sort of person but I still really am. It's just nowadays, I try my best to put that shyness behind and be a little bolder in my outlook in life. This blog gives me a chance to hide that shyness I have cos I'm not afraid to speak my mind here about anything at all. Besides when I'm blogging I don't have to look you guys in the eye (LOL).

Even right up to this very moment, whenever I go for any appointments, my heart would be beating to the tune of 300 to 400 beats a minute fearing the prospect of having to meet some unknown stranger for a presentation or a meeting and having to express myself and to sell some idea or concept to them. But I steel myself up and just get on with it. It's my job and it's what pays the bills. But if you could see inside me at times like these, you'd probably see me trembling in shyness, not to mention fear ... LOL! I'd be so glad when it was all over that I could just faint from relief!

That's why I found Syura's comments about me not being the shy type pretty hilarious. Is that the impression I give you guys about my character in real life? Gosh, if you guys only knew me in person, you'd really know how shy I can be. But once you really get to know me and I get familiar with you, you'd probably wish I'd revert back to being the shy guy I claim I am and would just shut the hell up ... LOL! Trust me, my two good buddies have been wishing for that ever since they got to know me a lot better ... LOL!